It'd be so easy to say that I'm broken goods and that I'm not worth anyone's time or love. But that's not true. I do deserve something/someone good. Why shouldn't I go for the best? Why shouldn't I be picky. I'm sure I can and will commit when the time is right, but it doesn't seem to be right now. And yet, these boys still frustrate me.
Robot - The one who I find attractive but seems to prefer liking me from afar and sending me mix signals. How am I supposed to deal with you?
Little - The one who I used to have a big crush on. The one I admired from afar but was fooled by. The one who just told me recently how much he liked me but holds secrets he confessed to. The one who was straightforward when I didn't want him to be. How am I supposed to respond to poison like you?
Gym - The one who seems to like games and using an innocent expression to get him on peoples' good side. The one who knows how to twist his words to get exactly what he wants. How am I supposed to be friends with someone I may have something negatively in common with?
Puzzle - The one who is a complete mystery. The one who has more emotional roller coasters than any girl I know. The one who says he loves me as a friend but I suspect there's more to it. The one who I need to keep my distance from but can't because he will hate me if I did. How am I supposed to keep up with you?
Lookalike - The one who reminds me so much of a past I should probably forget. The one who's young but acts like a boy I used to know when I was his age. The one who seems to come around when I least expect it. How am I suppose to be a senior to you?
I can think of so many more frustrations that run through my mind. Yes, all of the above are my frustrations, besides my homework and responsibilities.
I think I'd rather not talk about you guys to anyone. No one can understand my position unless they stood in my shoes. Could you guys actually step into my shoes and help me out though? Cause I'm failing terribly at solving my own problems.
Give me a rose, and I should probably throw it back in your face. But being me, I'd take it and go along for the emotional roller coaster I know this to be. I really shouldn't accept it, but....
