Time to say goodbye

It's not goodbye exactly. It's more like an almost goodbye. The 2013 countdown is soon. It's obvious the world didn't end. It's also obvious that a lot is already starting to change this year, and we haven't even changed the numbers in the year yet. 

Hmmm....

Let me tell you how my December has been since I last blogged. Or rather let me show you.

 I celebrated prom with the people who mean the most to me, my girls :) 

I celebrated Christmas with my family :)

I celebrated my cousin, Erich's farewell :/

Every one of these events were memorable. I thank God I had the opportunity to spend this much quality time with my family and friends. December 2012 is almost over. It is time to say goodbye, in more ways than one. But I think I'm ready to say "I'm ready." I have to be. The year 2013 is coming at me and there's no way to stop it.

So, I will count my blessings. Take life in stride. Stay positive. Serve my purpose the best way I can. There's nothing that can stop this girl ;) and you know it!

In the meantime...

Just take each day as it comes, as if you were turning pages on a storybook entitled "My Life". 

<3

Quoting Dr. Seuss

Till I find my life partner with the level of weirdness that is parallel to mine, I'm gonna enjoy my life :D

Because I agree with you Dr. Seuss. LIFE IS A LITTLE WEIRD O.O

So, SUCK IT people who are trying to ruin me. I'm doing just fine. Better than fine even. Just watch me do my victory dance!

I want to type "THE END".

This can't be. He who says the dumbest things, also manages to say the things that no one could possible know about, unless one was a mind reader. Every time she thinks it's over, he comes up with a piece of her past she thought she had let go of a long time ago. How does he do that?

She never picked him for a fool, but his actions say otherwise. This unusual friendship they keep trying to maintain is never going to work. Especially if he doesn't start using his head. He's not even really using his heart. He's using... A fool's mind. And so the story continues.

Can't he see how fragile she is? How fragile she's been? Why he keeps coming around is still a mystery to her, and to those who stand by her.
"If I were you, I'd ask him to f* off."
"If I were you, I'd ask him to go bother someone else."
"If I were you, I'd slap him in the face."

Then they go on to tell her how good a person she is. Forgiving him like that. What they don't know is, she may or may not have a hidden agenda. She's not even sure herself. How can someone seem so right for you and so wrong for you at the same time?

There is one thing she is clear about:
No matter how much of her mind he reads; No matter how much of what he feels is exactly what she's felt (Heart beating fast and heavy breathing); No matter how much of what he remembers is what she will never forget, she IS over him.

"But I'm not over you. There's just something about you," he says.
Beautiful...Angelic...

That is why she doesn't think this is the end of their storybook. It could just be the end of another chapter. This story is starting to get on her nerves though. And here she thought she was the girl with the roller coaster emotions. Apparently not. So, this annoying story continues. It'll most likely travel into a place of oblivion that no one will ever decipher.

Next Chapter.

Hello December :)

So, it's the 1st of December 2012 :) I don't think I want to remember my last December. Too many mixed feelings, too many complications :S

Okay, this year may be even more complicated. For example: Choosing which college I want to go to, what subjects I want to take for A Levels etc. But emotionally, I'm stable :)

It really is a weight off my shoulders without a crush, a boyfriend and an ex on my mind. I don't think I even try anymore. Someday, somehow, my time will come. I have so much extra time now to do my song-writing, story-writing and song covers.

Admittedly, I still have one more SPM paper O_O Economics! Ughhh.. After the 6th of December, I know I'll feel even better :) Although, I do have 2 more exams after that. Cambridge First Certificate Examination & Trinity Public Speaking. WOW!! That sure is a lot of exams, huh? There's one more test I do need to take...MY DRIVING TEST!! Ok, that's about it. Maybe that's why my December is extra full this year.

In December, I have a couple of MUST DOs that are important. Like my MRI. (I still have no idea what that's gonna be like.) Also, I think I've got a dentist appointment scheduled in there somewhere. And a 4 day Pre College Preparatory English Class.

On a fun note, I have one day put aside for the girls and I to go shopping. (Especially for clutches-*prom*) A movie night with the old band. (Blueberry Cheesecake) A day of work for my aunt. (Santa Paws) A wedding dinner. A couple of Christmas parties. PROM!! :D

The rest of the days are for family and friends, good food and fellowship :)

Ooh! Ooh! I think my family and I are going to put up our Christmas tree tonight! What better day to do it than on the 1st day of the month Jesus was born in right? ;) I'm already feeling all warm and fuzzy inside thinking about Christmas. It seems many people are sticking with the traditional red decorated tree this year. I CAN'T WAIT!!!







So here we are. Back to December. The so called "Favourite month of the year". I just pray everything goes well for me. I hope that doesn't sound selfish. I'm just done with all this nonsense. Boys who can't stay away, hurtful words and actions, arguments and fights that in the end, mean NOTHING. I want a magical Christmas, I want a beautiful December. That's what I'm praying for right now. So, don't try to ruin this month for me, ok? I'll be nice if you promise not to be naughty. Hehe ;)